Beginnings are Hard

 Ever been a "Beginner"? When we are little our lives are full of beginnings; talking, walking, getting teeth, losing teeth, riding a bike, starting school, and many, many more! I remember a lot of my childhood. I can't remember to put the clothes in the dryer or take the bread out of the oven but, I can remember what my friend Kristen had on the first day of kindergarten and the name of the substitute teacher who "put my name on the board" in 1st grade. Frustrating sometimes but, it's nice to have some memories so locked in up there! Like, my favorite nightgown that my Mom wore, I remember the exact moment I felt nervous for the first time, I remember the first time I ever picked a dandelion.~ That is Crazy!

The things that we are forced to begin as grown-ups require change. I don't know about you but for me, Change is tough. It's scary! It's The unknown. The Dark. I have ALWAYS been afraid of the Dark! It is easy when you know what you are doing. What about when you don't? "Some people" ;)  can't stand not knowing, they just can't handle it. Thank God he is teaching me a little more everyday that I am NOT an expert, on anything!! It's ok! I don't have to be. He is showing me that there is Freedom in being a beginner and in not knowing exactly how or why!!

Sunday morning I started something!! I started training for a half marathon... ~That is Crazy! It was a small, slow start!! My friend Kathie and I walked for 40mins and jogged for about 5. We did approx 2 miles. It was nothing BIG. Could we have done more- Yes! Should we have done more- maybe? Will we do more-Definitely!! Monday night I went to a 1hr long Zumba class @ the YMCA. I really did some sweatin that night! Here's what I was thinking, " I might throw up, I could even pass out...really, I might die" Here's what I had to TELL myself, " If I throw up, that will be Bad but, I will live; If I pass out, I might get injured but, I will live; If I die, I will die TRYING!" Tuesday I got up @ 5:30 after being up for about an hour in the middle of the night with a sick little one, to jowalk with Kathie and another friend who IS a runner. (Told you guys, I am all or none at all) We jowalked 2.3 miles/40mins.

Some old people are stubborn, set in their ways, even boring. I refuse to be one of those old people! I wanna be that 60 year old woman who tried to swim 103 miles to Cubadiananyad.com or the 88 year old lady on the news who jumped out of an airplane. The 92 year old lady who is learning how to live life, without the Love of her life. Lord, Help me be better with change, a better beginner and let my ways be your ways! Psalm 18:29-30 For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall. As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried:he is buckler to all those that trust in him.

Start something! Try something New! Let's Begin together! It's good for us!! It's Not easy, but it's worth it!